Wednesday, March 31, 2004


NAIL IN THE FENCE


There once was a little boy who had a bad

temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails

and told him that every time he lost his

temper, he must hammer a nail into the back

of the fence. The first day the boy had

driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next

few weeks, as he learned to control his

anger, the number of nails hammered daily

gradually dwindled down. He discovered

it was easier to hold his temper than to

drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't

lose his temper at all. He told his father

about it and the father suggested that the

boy now pull out one nail for each day that

he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally

able to tell his father that all the nails

were gone. The father took his son by the

hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You

have done well, my son, but look at the

holes in the fence. The fence will never be

the same. When you say things in anger,

they leave a scar just like this one. You

can put a knife in a man and draw it out.

It won't matter how many times you say I'm

sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal

wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They

make you smile and encourage you to succeed.

They lend an ear, they share words of praise

and they always want to open their hearts to us."

hey people...was reading this mail and i thought it was very meaningful. just want to share it with all of you guys. haha too lazy to post anything today. yeAh! my birthday's coming in 4 days time! haha cant wait for that day to come. heehee...wonder if i should skip band this friday since there is a high percentage that the stupid ms sia will not come. hmmm...maybe i should skip monday since it's the day after my birthday...well well....i guess everything will have to depend on my mood on friday...(",) *haPpY*

jocelyn | 8:33:00 PM

Tuesday, March 30, 2004


yipEee!! haha today is one slack day. hahaha lessons ended at like 10.20? heehee coolness! actually lessons technically ends at 11.45, but apparently mr kwek is not here today, we self dismissed ourselves at 10.20...but sad life, we have to come back to school at 3.05 for PE. argh....so stupid. there's 4 free periods before we have PE. waste time. could have go home so much earlier. oh well, me, serena, kah woon, christine, lynn and avril went to TM for breakfast even thought we already ate in school. omg...we people can really eat. sat at McDonalds for quite long and slack the whole time. all of us decided to leave early so we can sleep in class for a while before PE starts. we headed for the bus stop to take bus no.3 back. yeah! finally the bus came after 15 mins of waiting...but...the stupid, idiotic, asshole, sucker, fish head, pea-brain dino, blind bus driver never stop and drove pass us!!!!!!!!! *piSseD* all of us were so mad at the driver...i mean how could he not see a bunch of people at the bus stop waiting for bus? he must be really blind man. swear i could have killed him at that spot. nevermind. we took the train to pasir ris in the end. so stupid. walked to the bus stop and bus 3 came quite some time later. a familiar bus came in sight. it was that bus that left us at the bus stop!!! hahahaha so coincident. nothing happened. just when we were getting off the bus, serena just realised that she forgot to bring her PE attire. smartness. we were talking about how torturous PE will be all the while and it took her such a long time to realised that she forgot about her attire. she called home and her sis took cab to bring her attire to the school. haha lucky...hmmm....i m tired now...my whole body is aching. today's PE lesson is not meant for humans to do!!! u people know what i mean. have to run around the track once for warm up, then do two rounds of circuits around the track as conditioning for the upcoming NAPFA test. sickening. wait...that's not all, after that, we are supposed to run four rounds around the track!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pEngZ* but during the second round of circuit, it rained. wahahahahahahahahaha. then again, the teachers are not that nice. we have to do all the things in the hall...and yea, run four rounds around the hall area. i die-ed. heehee...we all cheated. ran three rounds only. yupz. set of for home after PE. slept for a while after a nice cooling bath. now, watching tv and not bothering about homework. oh man...i think i've slack too much. desperately need to get down to serious study if not i m gonna suffer...i mean my result's gonna suffer.

jocelyn | 8:33:00 PM

Monday, March 29, 2004


omg...so tired!! today is the start of the new time table. there's all three tutorials and it's so boring...doze off for a lot of lessons. haha during my self study period, went to SCAS for voluntery services. hmmm...i've been attached to this class called 16B. all the children in that class are very dependent on the volunteers to take care of them. got myself to take care of this kid called faris. he's cute, but got attitude one. he has the tendancy to throw things and hit people. and yea...i was the victim. he keeps hitting my nose and throwing the toys. but well, i have no choice...i cant possibly scream and hit him back. i m quite an impatient person actually...frankly, after being a volunteer there, i have learn how to be patient with these kids. really patient. we had music class and all of us will sing and have some hands movements to teach them. well, most of them are not responding though. we went around holding their hands and moving it around. heehee...actually, most of the time i was just standing there and helping the kid to clean his saliva. i cant help feeling disgusted at first when i have to hold a hand that is filled with saliva. i just keep telling myself their saliva is not dirty...hey...it's not easy to overcome these fears. stayed there till about 4.30 when they are dismissed. yupz...that place definitely left a deep impact on me. went back to school for band...argh...so tired. i wasnt in a good mood then cos i was perspiring so much and i was having a bad hair day. yea...today's band isnt that bad...but i didnt get a chance to play the trumpet again cos there wasnt enough for everyone. kinda unfair cos me and huiwen are always the one who have to sarcrifice our trumpet for other people. then again, who ask us to be new players...sigh...it's always so unfair sometimes. especially the way yu hian treats us. sucker. i m just hoping and praying very hard that ms sia will not make a fool out of me and huiwen on the day of the concert again...i'm afraid that history might repeat itself. last year's concert was a disaster...i cried in the changing room. luckily not much people knew about it...if not for mr chua, i would have left and not join the band for concert. pathetic life. *haiZ* okie...that's enough. let's move on. have to do hw later. feel like slapping myself. i left my econs wb in school again and i cant do my work. ass...guess i can only do maths tutorial ba...

jocelyn | 9:06:00 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2004


woke up super early today...not used to waking up at like 8.30 am? hmmm...got scolded early in the morning by my mum. dotz...what a way to start my day. didnt even to have a chance grab a bite before leaving the house to go to the temple to pray my grandfather. fell asleep in the long bus journey to bishan. wow~ when i reached there, it dawned upon me why i have to wake up so early...it was so crowded there. cars were jammed and people all over the place. clever me have to wear a dark coloured shirt there...i nearly died from heatstroke. haha people were burning joss sticks and joss paper everywhere. i teared cos the place was so smoky!!! feels like as if i m crying...heehee...ok...let's fast foward. met my cousin there. never seen her for like a year cos she went to UK to study. haha finally, caught up with her and chatted for a while. the next thing i know, they finished praying and we have food to eat! yeah! haha i m so hungry...ate some chicken and duck. hmmm....so delicious....after eating, all of my relatives went home. my family went to junction8. haha just for the sake of aircon. walk around aimlessly...after cooling down, went to some hawker center to eat. the noodles there is not bad though....yeap. went home right after eating lunch. took a nice long bath and went into hibernation. argh...shouldnt have slept for so long cos i didnt realise we have so many hw! as i m updating my blog now, i'm doing my maths tutorial. sigh...think i m gonna sleep late again. it's ok...i'm used to it. haha maths is driving me nuts totally. can only solve 2 out of 7 questions. rubbish. *kA-bisH* wonder why we have to study stupid chapters like differentiation, integration, probability blah blah blah when we dont even need these when we get into the working society. man...those people who invented all these formulaes are seriously and totally brainless. haha okie...enough of complaining. better get going if not i cant finish up my work....

jocelyn | 10:34:00 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2004


woke up today with my whole body aching from the killer PE lesson that we had yesterday...man...laze on my bed for like 1hour? i think longer than before messages came in...lynn asked me if we wanna go out today...but i was sort of low on cash so i didnt really want to go. but on second thought, i havent been going out for a long time cos i have been grounded for so long...since block test had just past, it would be a great opportunity to ask my mum to let me out. i messaged lynn again to ask her if she want to go out after fighting for my freedom with my mum...and yeah! she can go together with avril, douglas and serena. at around 1 plus, i called lynn, she was still at home. i heard this very soft and reluctant voice. i knew she didnt want to go already...and yea, she said she dont feel like going out already. as usual, being me, i got super damn it ultra pissed. i hung up the phone. she messaged me telling me sorry, i didnt reply. too angry to do that. *siGhz* i hate it when people said that they can make it but in the end, they bail u out. in the end, i met serena only. luckily she can make it if not i would have exploded. hmmm...we were just walking around aimlessly, dont even know where we wanted to go. then we walked on the streets...hmmm...this is the first time i walked on orchard road and it's so empty and deserted...well, then we continued walking and ate ice-cream. yum yum...i always like those ice-cream that they sell along the streets. haha they are always so tasty. felt much better after eating some chocolate ice-cream. ok, fast foward. took the train as serena as i was on my way to pasir ris. well, i was early and so, serena took the train all the way to pasir ris with me instead of getting down at bedok. heehee...i got company! haha then we got down at pasir ris, we walked over to the next train. she asked me to take the train with her to tampines then i get down while she continue her journey back to bedok. the main purpose of this was to waste time actually...haha it's super rubbish. but some how, she decided to get down with me at tampines and then take the train back to pasir ris and then go back to bedok back from there. *doinK* hahahaha that's so nonsensical...but well, we have nothing to do anyway, so just waste time. there we parted. embarked on my journey to my babysitter's house. her daughter's baby first month and my family was invited to eat buffet at their house. met a lot of my ex-neighbours when all of us were still staying in bedok. argh....that's when my ultimate nightmare started. all the aunties there cant recognise me. they said i was my sis...(-.-") nvm...then they said omg, i look like my mum. wow~ i do wonder why she's my mum...duh-h of course i look like my mum if not who will i look like? them? *ka-bIsH* sigh...and yada yada yada...there they go... you have grown taller! you are in jc! have boyfriend or not? i have no comments. i felt like some superstar and all of them being the interviewer, questioning me one by one. haha didnt really talk to them, went to get some food and stayed at the corridor talking with my sis. the mee siam was superb. ate two bowls of it. haha contented after eating food. went home feeling tired and now, updating my blog. yupz. that's all. (",)

jocelyn | 9:34:00 PM

Friday, March 26, 2004


*yawNz* today is one tiring day...band ended at like 8.30...man...this is so torturous...i literally crawled home...hmmm...now for a piece of good new. finally, my computer has some hope. i actually go online and chat on msn. yea...haha stupid...*yaWnz* argh...i'm so sleepy, i cant stop yawning. oh ya, back to band, there's so many new trumpters today. there's only 4 J2s including me and 11 new J1s! woah~ they are all so pro-looking. wonder when will i be like them. hmmm...there's this trumpter called Rachel...i think she's not straight...pretty obvious though. haha and freakily, she and a clarinetist look so alike! heehee...felt very happy when i saw familiar faces. Wen Qi, Jun Yang, Benny, Dawn and Rickson...haha all the people that i missed so much. *yaWnzZzzzzZ* haha here i go yawning again. hmmm...is my blog entry really that long? i dont think so leh...how come all my friends who read my blog keep on saying that i'm writing some super duper long essay? haha i guess they are not as naggy as me or something. the day went quite fine... nothing much happened. just got irritated by somebody. dont wanna mention name. *siGh* get so irritated when he has to follow us around. no privacy to do some other things that we want. *bisH* *yaWnZzzzzzzZzzzzzZzzzzzzz* i think i better get some rest...i can hardly open my eyes now...haha yeah! at last, i can hibernate cos saturday dont have to go back to school for so stupid extra lessons that is wasting my sleeping time...

jocelyn | 9:44:00 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2004


yeah! finally, the block test is over! haha feel so happy now that a heavy load is off my shoulders. yupz. went out yesterday to celebrate the end of block test and at the same time, celebrate kah woon's belated birthday. well, we went to pasta mania to eat and bought this super ultra nice chocolate cake to eat. haha we created a scene by singing the birthday song so loudly. embarrassing but yet cool in a way. well, kah woon, being the only 18 yrs old in our gang, went to buy Hooch and Vodka and treat us. we ended smuggling it into the cinema because apparently, we forgot that we are actually watching a movie. we watched the eye2. not as scary as the first one...haha but i still covered my face throughout the whole show. ha...the cleverness of me. should ot have wasted my money cos i covered my face most of the time and i dont really know what's going on during the show. will not really recommend the show cos it's not that interesting. not a lot of scary scenes but tonnes of conversations that's all. guess i will rate it 2 out of 5 stars stars. heez...started the day well but ended the day bad. got scolded by my mum at night. sigh...she throws her temper for no reason and i have to be the one with super ultra rotten luck to be scolded by her. *bish* #@%?!* man....go fill in the blanks with whatever that you want. dont wanna fill my blog with my "beautiful and colourful language" that will shock people....

that was what happened yesterday. haha now for today. as usual, i'm in the library furiously typing away. haha computer still down. argh...i have to wait for him to reformat my computer this saturday. reformat!!! that's the last thing that i will i want to listen in my whole life...*sniFf sNifF* there goes my 400 songs in the computer and all the photos that my friends send me. man...this sucks to the core. feel so bored without the computer at home...cant chat with my friends online, cant listen to songs, cant do this cant do that. sianz 1/2. still remember that day when serena was checking emails for me, people in my msn were talking to her. we talked on the phone and i tell her what to type to reply to my friends. so funny... haha well well, i better stop here liao..heehee....all my friends are saying that i m typing some online compo. *sheesH* yeap...will update again when i get to use the school computer (that will be tomorrow ba). laLa~~

jocelyn | 2:29:00 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2004


hmmmm....here in the school library again trying out this blog thingy...haiz...so sad, house computer have virus, cant use it at all. have to depend on frens to help me check my mails if not use the school computer to do my stuff...oh well, guess i'll have to wait until my uncle is here to repair my computer for me. haha the computer is literally my life, cant survive without it for even one day. *sNiggEr* well, the past few days hasnt been good...block tests, family problems....sigh. wat can be worse than all these? block test is like woah~ i m so prepared to flunk every single paper. GP compo sucks cos i think i wrote out of point!!!! argh.....econs case study nearly took my life. i dont even understand a single thing that the case study was talking about. wah~ tomorrow will be chemistry and maths paper. i m praying for the better cos i studied very very hard for these paper...if not my effort will be going down the drain....again.

jocelyn | 9:22:00 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2004


haha yeah! this is my first blog n just trying it out for fun...well, nothing much to say for now. in school mugging for the block test which is like next week and i m still not very prepare for it. *siGh* feel like i m counting down to doom's day. haha will update later at night i guess. need to get out of this horribly freezing library which is turning me into a snowman soon. *brRrr....* cant even type properly now....

jocelyn | 11:54:00 AM