Friday, October 29, 2004

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like

Welcome to my life

jocelyn | 1:13:00 PM

Friday, October 22, 2004

wah~ i feel so sad now!!! i read so many people's blog and so many people said that they cant make it to next year!!! i dont want that to happen!! i want the trumpeters!!! i miss them...

*sniff sniff*

people...dont give up hope first...i m sure all of you can get promoted to you. i m sure you all will. when all of you get promoted i treat you all eat!! *promised* so must get promoted you know to get a free treat from me....i seldom treat people de...hmmm....

my mood is so freakingly affected now...besides the fact that maia is out of singapore idol and my year ones friends' bloggies...i cant finish studying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! siGh...i m dropping hair so badly...pimples are popping out of my face just like daisies popping out from the snow! *symptoms of extreme stress* i feel like whining to someone...but whine to who?!

been having nightmares too...i got AO, AO and F for my promos. they say usually the A Levels grades will improve by two grades the max....and if so, i will get D, E, E for my As!!! *scream in terror* i dreamt that i was weeeping so badly when i got my results while all my friends are jumping for joy around me cos they got straight As. *continue screaming*

my hair is so not straight now....*totally sidetracked from what i m talking above* siGh. i wanna rebond my hair again...guess it will be after the As. i'll dye it and maybe highlight it too....then die from the bill. ya.

wah~~ i m praying now!! *please let all the trumpeters get promoted...please...* =

jocelyn | 10:07:00 PM

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

been reading my year one friends' blog and this thought came to my mind....jc is really tough. somehow, in everyone's blog, they are always complaining about their life in jc...if that's the case, why are they here? same applies for me, i've been constantly complaining and whining about how my life sucks and i really regret coming here.

i m seriously regretting now...last year, when i got my results for common test, i should have left for poly. i should have.

as serena was telling me what miss ee told her last year during promos was true.

" some people can just fair better in a poly.
some people can score nothing but Fs in a JC but can get nothing but As in poly.
poly is not inferior as compared to a JC.
so, if you have to leave for a poly, dont regret...
cos you know you've done your best in JC
and knowing that you can do better in a poly. "

true right? siGh.

jocelyn | 6:15:00 PM

Friday, October 15, 2004

it's the last day of school!! so fast right? siGh.

lots of crying in school. mrs lim cried, miss lim hs cried, i cried, ne cried, christine cried and lots more people cried. it was so touching. so gonna miss you guys man.

the band performance for the open house was superb. s cube came. serena and emma smiled and greeted her. i chose to ignore her presence...but emma nudged me. i turned and gave the fakest smile i can ever give. oh well, she cant be bothered by my presence too i guess. good for both of us.

ended the day bad i think. nvm. dont wanna talk about it. maybe i was wrong in telling an outright lie but....

alright. you guys ready for photos and more photos? i hope you all are...

50++ photos waiting for you peepz to see ya?

ready?

get set?

here goes the photos...