Thursday, December 29, 2005

i cant help but to think if that post was referring to me....

or someone else.

jocelyn | 8:02:00 PM

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

heez....i'm feeling much better...really....thanks people....for lifting up my spirits...

went to east coast yesterday...i love the sea...it's just so relaxing. was supposed to go there to eat bun bun with chrissy poo....haha...we met up at paya lebar station..took bus 70. i sotong-ly and blurly thought that 70 goes to marine parade....but noOooo....

i realised the bus took a turn into a road which i dont recognise. shit.

by the time i asked the bus driver if the bus goes to marine parade, i was already at kallang stadium area. -_____-" cool huh. hahaha....chris nearly killed me that's all.

crossed the road to wait for 196....and the freaking bus took like 30mins to reach....by the time we headed our way to marine parade, it was close to 7. went through the underpass and this two grRrrr irritating guys were like teasing us. i hate it man.

nvm...and so we walked all the way down to marine cove to eat bun bun....haha....diao-ed. we reached there just to realised that bun bun wasnt open from monday to thursday. so shittified right? like as if starting off the day with taking the wrong bus wasnt bad enough, now going all the way to east coast to eat bun bun and the stall wasnt open. gosh. hahahaha....so suay.

in the end, we had to settle down for mac. sian-ed.

eat mac and was really looking forward to going to the breakwater to eat the seaweed we bought when i realised that it was raining cats and dogs out there. -____________-" uh huh. no choice and we have to sit at mac till the rain gets lighter.....

hohoho...and for god knows what reason, i actually brought my umbrella that day. =)

so we used my pathetic small umbrella to shelter us to the breakwater....but the lightning was scaring the shit out of me. haha....if you guys know i'm really really scare of lightning...haha....you know the striking you anytime thingy.....heez. paranoid in short. bahHhhh...managed to psycho chris to not go there and we sat at a bench. the seat was wet...and she suggest that we should use TISSUE PAPER to dry the paper. wow. and i said that i might need 9 pack of tissues to dry the whole bench.

heh heh. revolutionary invention- the plastic bag. we torn the super tiny small size plastic bag into half and lay it on the bench so we can sit. so lang bei right? omg....i held the umbrella while chris hold the seaweed...so funny i tell you.

two girls sitting on a small plastic bag, slight rain, one holding an umbrella while the other holding the packet of seaweed, looking straight at the sea with lightning striking across the sky. perfect aint it?

oh well, one pack of seaweed wasnt enough, so we went to 7-11 to buy two more packets. by the time we finish buying, the rain stopped.

went to the breakwaters....but the path to breakwaters was flooded...so we have to sit at the stone table admist a few tall coconut trees. oh well, the chances of getting strike by lightning was just 101%. paranoid again.

and we were sitting there, talking, listening to the soft splashing sound of the waves....so calm...so nice when.....

i saw a rat. -________-"

how anti-climax. we ended up standing on top of the table and keeping a lookout for the rat. sheesh. and so, we headed home since it was getting a little late and the rat was really scaring us. took a few stupid photos...

in short, haha....we were lang bei, we climbed three overhead bridges in a day and i got a blister. bahHhhhhh.....

but it was fun. and i felt better.

met up with nene, lynno, jill porky and chris today.they came over to my house. nene highlighted her hair....like finally she does something to her hair....hahaha....guppy and jill pork cut their hair while chris helped me out with painting my toe nails.

ate mac again...nuggets, fries and more nuggets. think i have enough of mac for the week. or even the month.

went to kbox to sing....it was impromptu. it was great!! did a lot of singing...but felt kinda bad cos lynno and jill porky didnt sing much. heez. i love singing. lalalala~~ watched tong hua mtv and i cried. it's soOooooo sad!!!!!!!

cant wait to go kbox to sing again.

lastly, it was great to meet up with you guys again. yeaps. (^^,)

and advise just falls on deaf ears....

jocelyn | 10:51:00 PM

Monday, December 26, 2005

haha yea...so it's been another week.

i realised i'm not the girl that everyone loves.
inperfection.

and so i've said something wrong...perhaps something more.
talkative?

now i understand how does it feels like to the outcast in the working place.
lonely.

sorry xinling...it's my fault for blabbering out what you said.
apology....

sorry to myself cos it doesnt pay to be kind to help others when they are in need of help.
pathetic.

in the end, all i get in return....was hatred.
crying.

it's alright. i guess i deserve it. everyone seems to be leading a happy life now.....yea....it's just me, myself and i now.
independence.

i found out that i neither belong to here nor there now.
lost.

i'm losing myself. i really am.
slipping away.

jocelyn | 8:57:00 PM

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

alright. and so i cut and dyed my hair again. -_____________-"

haha...cut my hair on sat...but i cut my hair today again...cos i was kinda forced into dying hair with my friends....bahHhhh...luckily it's a promotion...if not, my bank account will suffer. actually, it's suffering....hahaha...overspent like shit.

new hairstyle, new colour, new beginning.

we are only young for once in our life...make the best out of it....do something crazy...like me. cutting my hair two days after cutting it...dye my hair like once every two months....but first, before you wanna do something crazy, please make sure you are loaded....freaking rich and have tonnes of money to spare. lolx....dont end up like me...spending more than 600 bucks this month....-gosh...can faint right?-

eka got the job at the shop i'm working now...she'll be starting work with me on thursday. hahaha...yeah! i'm not the newest there...

today's calculus test was....how should i put it....alright but yet...not alright. i'm quite sure that this time i can get less than 20 marks....die....

cant wait for mrs lim's christmas bbq/party/thingy tomorrow...hope that it'll be fun....although i have a gut feeling that something bad will happen. i better stop thinking. yeaps.

getting used to the working life and lesser sleep thingy. =) endurance.

packing up my feelings...time to move on.

ikanbillie. that's my alter ego.

jocelyn | 10:24:00 PM

Monday, December 19, 2005

christmas is coming! haha...as usual...will be spending a lonely christmas....

oh well...not really lonely...cos i'll be working...i wrapped a bouquet of flowers that day...so happy! the boss was saying that the arrangement looks ok...heez...and a customer bought it. =) it just brightens up my day. i got a job for eka at my flower shop too... yeah! there's someone to work with me now.

studied at the airport today for calculus test tomorrow...gosh. test again.

bahHhhh...my weight is increasing....i need help. or should i say...i need to start jogging...haha i dont wanna find excuses to cover up...i'm just plain lazy to get out of the house and go to the park for a jog....

i wanna watch king kong....and narnia....siGh.

and chrissy poo...thanks for laughing at the typo error.....haha

bloody mood swing is driving me nuts....

jocelyn | 11:21:00 PM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

i seriously dont know what to blog about...but i just feel like blogging...

everything feels so surreal...nothing seems real or true to me right now...i lost interest in reading blogs...siGh.

im just so tired...i know you people must be sick of me saying this...but i m really really tired...so worn out...i cant concentrate on anything....be it school work or working...im way behind tutorials...time is a luxury for me now....i dont even chat much on msn...even so, it's just to entertain people...

the dark circles around my eyes are getting so bad...panda or zombie? you decide....

im dragging my feet when im out...for shopping!!! how can that be?! i love shopping...but yet i have to go around dragging my heavy feet and buy clothes. i feel sorry for myself...why do i have to do these to myself? i can dont work and live off with my pocket money and be a spoilt brat, ask for extra money from my grandma. but i cant bear to do that to my family...i dont have to bother with anything else- your life and what-so-ever...but noOoo....ahHhhhh!!!!

just what the fuck is wrong with me?!

i need a break.

from everything.

jocelyn | 10:58:00 PM

omg...yesterday was horrible...it's such a bad bad day....

first it's you...

next up, it's erm....you. (someone else)

then it was me.

how unlucky. =(

was being sent around city hall area to do flower delivery....bahHhhh...i swear i can kill someone at that moment...especially joseph.the.ass.hole.pig.brain.security.guard from i dont know how to spell tower....grRrrr...you will get it from me someday!!! muahahahahaha....okies. back to reality.

siGh.

all i want for christmas is you.....

jocelyn | 12:15:00 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005

i love my isqueeze..... -hmMmm...-

haha...long hours of standing....from work...even longer hours than sushi tei....but it's ok...i love my job. =)

i know i've not been blogging for a long time...haha too tired...cant seems to find the energy to blog about everything that's happening now. hmmm...in brief

1) i failed my basic....hohohoho....not surprising.

2) i'm starting to enjoy school now...haha

3) i'm very broke now...how to go for christmas shopping??!!

4) i got my first christmas pressie of the year...haha a billabong handbag. thanks chrissy poo and kw.

5) i feel like buying a bouquet of roses for myself. -nuts-

6) i went to ocs (officer cadet school) that day....eye opener. not forgetting, lots of cute guys. heez.

7) i cant remember what i wanna type.

okies.yeap. quite a happening week...that's why i m drained...seriously, i look like a life size panda walking around singapore. hohoho....

my attitude has been quite bad lately...bahHhhhh....who cares right? -see? im soOoo heck care now-

rudolf the red nose reindeer...has a little shiny nose....

jocelyn | 10:30:00 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

yeah! i got a new job...not going to say where it is....but yeah! haha...so happy. florist. not bad eh? =)

starting work on tuesday...feeling a little nervous...-things will be fine-

having my basic theory test on wednesday...i'm thinking of giving it a pass...cos i havent been studying for it...but so wasted, i signed up for it and then it's like wasting my money....

desperately need to study right now...cos i've been slacking way too much and the upcoming test is on tuesday. shEesH...i really should kill myself.

so i guess i dont mean much to you....

jocelyn | 12:22:00 AM

Sunday, December 04, 2005

i'm sorry....i didnt mean to....

there's only two things that are impossible in this world- zero and infinity.

jocelyn | 2:44:00 AM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

went back to sushi tei yesterday to return my uniform....hai yen passed me the bag that amy airmail to me. haha...so sweet of her...giving me a bali bag...it's white and has flowers on it. lovely. think i'll send her a doraemon soft toy, she loves it...

first time going to taka sushi tei as a customer...haha...it feels weird. was eating with su. they service us ice cream and sashimi salad....muahahaha....nice!! many people didnt know i quit...which is good...i achieved the leave quietly thingy. heez....

went shopping after that...and headed off to tampines mall to watch chicken little with chris. haha..it's a very nice show...funny. i love the fish!!! so cutEEee!!! even cuter than chicken little man. =)

bought xmas pressie for chris...haha..she was shocked...glad that she like the pressie. (^^,)

ah well....seems like the only people who are constantly out with me are chris, kw, faizah and su. sad....but it's alright...i enjoyed their company.

stubborn.