Thursday, May 31, 2007
im not even one day through my days of jobless-ness and im bored to tears. =(
how to survive more days of slacking and doing nothing at home?!
im jobless but contented. im slacking but complacement.
tsk tsk. cant stand myself sometimes. need to start mugging soon...apparently, this module isnt as simple as what it seems. roar.
i dont want to mug. but then, there's nothing else i can do except mug. -faint-
-__________________-"
am feeling a need to head down to east coast to stone again. anyone?
stone.
jocelyn | 10:50:00 PM
and it's pretty obvious.
cant it be a slightly more subtle or something?
sigh. ball-less, gut-less, fucking coward.
-piak!!-
jocelyn | 12:07:00 AM
Monday, May 28, 2007
you just keep filling my mind.
every little thing that i do, every place that i go,
your shadow lingers around.
just tell me what to do, to forget someone.
forget someone once and for all.
wallowing in my sorrows.
deja vu.
jocelyn | 10:54:00 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
aye.
it's just nothing but a stupid game.
walk away.
jocelyn | 8:44:00 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
jocelyn | 12:44:00 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
at least i find myself thinking less about you and moving on.
been going out a lot....retail therapy really helps a lot. overspent like shit.
bloody broke now.
im a lucky ass sometimes....when it comes to money. hohoho. whenever im short of cash, somehow, someone will give me money to tide me over this period of time. i bought a pretty black dress with some red details on it. so happy. =)
saw a pair of black rim spectacles that i really like...heh....im soOooo going to get it.
woke up to a pleasant surprise today. mummy is sponsoring me to learn driving. woohoOooo!!
-jump around, hop hop hop, skip, scream- hahaha....but of course, i have to pass my basic first. bahHhhhh. so anti-climax. i want the driving license....i want to be like others, have a car, drive round, go out for a spin whenever im in a bad mood, go shopping, just drive around and look pretty. not bad eh?
im six days away from liberation=jobless=idle my life away=slacking=enjoy=rot=stone. just counting down....
im so tired from everything that i just want a break and escape.
when you're gone,
the face i came to know
is missing too....
jocelyn | 12:38:00 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
the past just keeps coming back.
cant help but a tear rolled down my cheek.
why?
jocelyn | 10:28:00 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
but of course,
does GINORMOUS damage to the wallet.
tsk tsk. watch me scrimp and save for the rest of the month.
fucking broke!!!
jocelyn | 10:05:00 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
ask her if she wants to stay a while.
she will be loved.....
i will be loved.
jocelyn | 9:51:00 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
although we fairly well know that it's impossible.
i guess wishes made on a shooting star was to give a glimmer of hope or a sort of comfort.
stoned.
jocelyn | 11:50:00 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
ended up talking quite a bit. somehow, it seems that i've got the world to hate him or even wanting to kill him.
but it didnt bother me.
not supressing my feelings, im not in denial too.
im at peace somehow. perhaps i've come to a stage whereby nothing matters anymore....
the burning questions, the 'what ifs' and the answers all seems to fall in place nicely. i dont need to hear anything from you, neither do i need you by my side anymore. everything just happens and the answers are right there in front of me.
i just have to look deeper and think through it.
you're just someone who happened to cross my path, made me fall from grace and learn how to pick up from then on.
what goes around comes around.
i just hope that you wont do this to others anymore cos it really really hurts.
karma.
jocelyn | 10:43:00 PM
and they live happily never after.
the end.
it's time to dry my tears and move on with life.
jocelyn | 12:38:00 AM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
i just want everything to be over.
and while im still trying to cope with the fact that you're gone in my life, more things have to come along.
somehow, you're a beautiful disaster.
you're the first to make me really fall in love with you
and the last person that im going to cry over.
now i know what's the difference between likes and love.
you liked me and it just wasnt enough for you to stay by my side.
it just wasnt.
you dont even know how much you hurt me.
thanks for the memories....
jocelyn | 4:05:00 PM
jocelyn | 12:48:00 AM
i really really wonder about it.
perhaps everything that i do is wrong in the eyes of others. i dont know why.
all i need is that little bit of faith and trust from all of you....
that's all i ever want.
as much as i dont speak about how i feel, i dont mean to ignore anyone of you. do you know how much does it hurt when you said that you feel that i hate the family?
you just dont know.
i have tonnes of troubles piling up inside me and it's just not in me to tell others about my problems. face it.
as much as i had fun at sentosa today, it's perhaps one the most miserable day i've ever spent.
it hurts so bad that i cant dry my eyes,
'cause it keeps on refilling
with the tears that i've cried.
jocelyn | 12:05:00 AM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
for this fish here needs to pack up her heart.
jocelyn | 11:44:00 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
for the reason is...
this blog is read by people whom i dont want them to know what's going on.
perhaps it's time to change again.
sniffle.
jocelyn | 11:05:00 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
jocelyn | 12:49:00 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
somehow, i feel that i need the peace once in a while. im just too tired to move my ass around and im mentally exhausted. sigh.
been watching tv for the whole day. ate nothing but junk food so far. breakfast (or lunch you call it since i woke up at 11 plus close to 12 today) was bak chor mee,then subsequently, the family started to leave one by one...and i ate a whole packet of big bag pizza flavoured calbee chips (which is my current favourite), drank a cup of iced milo, ate chocolate and pigged out on peppermint and chocolate chip ice cream.
im amazed at the amount of food i ate. hahaha.
still, im hungry. =(
there's no food at home, no one to cook for me, im lazy to cook, i refused to go downstairs and buy food back, im starving, in short, im just plain lazy. i rather starved to death than step out of the house to buy food. unless there's some good soul around who wants to buy food for me. then again, there's always mac delivery. hohohoho. junk food day i call it.
got some minor revamp of the room. daddy ol' got a shelf thingy and attached it to the wall to put the router and stuff. amusingly, i didnt realised what they did to my beloved jigsaw puzzle until i was drawing the curtains. look what i found on the window....
...
now you see it....
now you dont.
-_______________-"
-faint- they actually attached my jigsaw on the window to prevent sunlight from erm....how do you say it....to prevent the sunlight from overheating the router which is on the shelf near to the window. how innovative.
im bored. freaking bored.
i've been wanting to go to the beach to stone....it's been long since i last went there and stone for all i want. sigh. work is taking up half of my life....school is taking it's toll on me, i feel like crap. i need a getaway and just disappear from the surface of the earth for like a week or so. =(
i need my pay! (yes, it's the time of the month again when im going to whine about the procastination of my pay) if the pay is not coming in soon, im going to eat grass....literally. im broke as hell.
ahHhhhhhhh!!!! im bored.
在我心上用力的开一枪让一切归零在这声巨响...
jocelyn | 4:13:00 PM
i guess it's time to call it quits.
im out.
jocelyn | 12:39:00 AM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
what im going through now is a classic example of love hate situation.
it definitely drives you up the wall when you're already feeling pms-y.
grRrrrrr. dont test my patience. i havent been in a good mood.
last nerve left.
jocelyn | 7:55:00 PM
just kill me.
-_______________-"
jocelyn | 5:07:00 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
met tonnes of weird customers.
from super anal ones to super cranky ones. oh well....
more work coming up this month....apparently the new part timers that they hired are the super cannot make it type...sigh. so that means......
while they look for new part timers, i have to work more to cover the shift of the ex-part timers. -_____________-" i dont like it. grRrrrr.
it's been really peaceful for the past few days....i need more happenings in my life.
snort snort.
