Tuesday, January 30, 2007
was just reading through the journal that i used to write back then in secondary...the journal whereby mr tay will read through and give comments.
argh!!! i dont know how to explain my exact feelings right now....but im fucking embarrassed at the things that i used to write in the journal. damn it.
i didnt know my english was THAT ATROCIOUS back then ok.
gosh. oh my god. faint.
i complain about everything under the sky, i cant spell lots of words. examples,
comments was spelt as commands. -damn.-
phelgm was spelt as flum. -shakes head in embarrassement.-
aglican high school was spelt as aligan high school. -i so wanna cry now.-
appetite was spelt as appitte. -wahHhhhh!-
-roar!!!!- i bet mr tay must be laughing his head off while reading my journal. gosh. seriously, why is my english so horrigible back then without me realising it?!!
oh. not forgetting, the fugly handwriting. i cant make out half of the words that i wrote.
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aye. still, it was nostalgic.
jocelyn | 11:06:00 PM
haha...oh well...i do have some updates....here and there...nothing much...perhaps it's just some ramblings. =)
first up, new year shopping. wheEeeee!!! im almost done with the new year shopping....except that i need to buy a few more tops with a budget of 50bucks. haha. the mother gave me 200bucks for shopping. bought a top/blousey thingy, shorts from topshop which is going at 49bucks instead of 73 freaking bucks (didnt know that i've picked up a sale item until i was paying at the cashier...hahaha....happy happy...), a suspenders - all to complete the paperboy look haha, a pair of havaianas cos the guy was really freaking cute and a baby doll top. hmmm. doesnt seems to be a lot of things....but somehow, i've finished spending the 200bucks. bahHhhh.
and where does the extra 50bucks pop up from?
hohoho. my ah ma gave it to me. yea yea...im a spoilt brat. oh well...this life saving 50bucks can buy me at least 2 t-shirts that i have in mind. =)
speaking of new year shopping, something weird, funny, crazy and interesting happened yesterday while i was out shopping with suba after work.
here i go.
there's this shop in far east plaza that sells really unique top...handpainted tops and tops whereby you can wear it any way you like it. think it's called artiris or something like that. apparently, suba saw a top which she fancies and headed in to try the top. there's only 2 fitting rooms - one on the left in used by another customer and suba's using the right one.
there came along a freaking ugly PRC
she's pretty big size...not as in plump or fat, but sort of like muscular. i mean come on, at first glance, it's so obvious that she cant fit into the top....and she still wants to try it. sheesh. -roll eyes-
and so, she was queuing at the left fitting room....and she's freaking impatient can??!!!
the lady customer who was trying the top, opened the curtain and wanted to show her bf how she looks like in it....she was standing at the door and the PRC kept wanting to barge into her fitting room. i wonder if she has a brain or something. come on, common sense. someone is still using the changing room...so wait for your turn!
the lady then quickly closed the curtain and wanted to change out of the top....when the PRC suddenly just opened up the curtain and barge into fitting room putting down her bag and said embarrassingly loud in chinese,
"why not like this, i'll just share the fitting room with you." (directly translated into english)
fuck. what sort of social etiquette is that?
i really pity the lady ok...she was changing halfway when the PRC opened her curtain and barge in. think about it. how will you feel when a stranger barge in and share a fitting room with you....and worse still, it's a PRC? -faint-
i can only stand there and watch the whole thing happened in front of me in shock while the sales person was apologising profusely to the lady. hmmm....it's not her fault...
and so the PRC cant fit into the tube top....she came out and complain that she cant fit into it and threw the top on the cupboard before leaving. bleahz. i bloody hate them. no etiquette, no manners and fugly. pfffft.
others.
i dyed my hair black. did i mention this anywhere in my blog? i cant really remember but yea....it's time to go back to my asian roots. haha.
my studying is going nowhere...kinda lost the momentum to it.....why oh why? although this module is really much more interesting than what i expected.
hmmm. what else can i blog about......let me think....
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bahHhhhh.
i.really.have.nothing.else.to.blog.about.
how boring and sad can my life get?
zen me ban?
jocelyn | 9:44:00 PM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
if this insomnia continues, im going to go crazy soon. -roar!!!!-
test's coming up in about a week's time. damn it. this sucks. picture this. your previous module's exam just ended last week...and now, you have to start mugging for test which is two weeks after an exam. how exhausting can that be. there isnt like a break in between to take a breather or what-so-ever. im tired. mentally drained. i dont know how can i continue doing this....sigh.
valentine's day coming up real soon. work is going to like shit. i mean it. sometimes, i just dont understand...why are people willing to spend hundreds of bucks on flowers during valentine's when you can put that amount of money into good use? go for a good meal, buy her diamond or other gifts...something that last, not like flowers - whiter and dies after a few days. bahHhhh. stupid guys. =/
and as im typing this post, im falling asleep. but once i hit the bed......i cant fall asleep. sigh. -panda-ish-
oh well....nothing much to update. the above is just some rumblings. although i cant deny the fact that im really stress from school. i want to get good grades. i want to study forensic science. i wanna do so many things. but first, i've got to study hard.
sigh.
when is it arriving?
jocelyn | 11:52:00 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
niceness!!!!! happy happy little girl. =)
ouch.
jocelyn | 10:24:00 PM
i.m.addicted.to.hana.kimi.
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dont you dare show any face and tell me...
"see? i told you before....."
haha...i didnt watch it cause of wu zun or whoever ok....just that the show is really sweet and the song is like stuck in my head. argh. any pirates around who have that song send me ok?
-suffering from hana kimi withdrawal syndrome now- when is episode 10 coming up? hmmm. at the rate im going, i can foresee myself rushing to the vcd show to buy the whole set of vcd to watch it. hahaha....makes one want to fall in love too. aye.
dreamy.
jocelyn | 12:47:00 AM
Friday, January 19, 2007
but the paper was a freaking disaster!!!! wahHhhhh!!!! -bang head against the wall-
argh. nevermind. -starts praying- =/
bahHhhhh...im sort of lazy to update my blog right now. but there's tonnes on my mind. perhaps i'll write a long post tomorrow morning since i've got nothing much to do.
skip, hop, jump. skip, hop, jump.
jocelyn | 12:05:00 AM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
im halfway through. where are you?
quiet.
jocelyn | 2:57:00 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
this fish here is stucked,
on one man's island and freaking the shit out of herself.
why?
read on.
ikan the great opened the door,
saw a bloody freaking disgustingly big green lizard across the wall.
the lizard saw her.
it scrambled.
towards the toilet.
and suddenly, there was this
'PIAK!!' sound,
and the lizard jumped onto the floor.
ikan the great hurried back into the room
and slammed the door shut.
here she is,
typing out this post,
unable to visit the toilet (her favourite hangout)
or grab a quick bite from the kitchen.
the only she has now,
is
1. her laptop
2. her lecture notes (the last thing she needs on earth)
3. a packet of sweets in her cinnamoroll tin can.
the 'piak' sound keeps echoing in my mind
and i cant stop staring at the door.
what if the lizard comes crawling underneath the door and joins me in lala land?
maybe the lizard is fat, it cant crawl through that thin slab of space.
if the lizard is slim, god bless me.
why lizard why? you make my life miserable.
lizard exterminator.
jocelyn | 11:37:00 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
find comfort in pain
all pleasure's the same, it just keeps me from trouble
hides my true shape, like dorian grey
i've heard what they say, but im not here for trouble
it's more than just words, it's just tears and rain
deleted.
jocelyn | 9:51:00 PM
for now.
nothing matters anymore.
jocelyn | 3:16:00 PM
nicely typed out.
but im hestitating to post it up.
let me think through the consequences first. sigh.
narssistic.
jocelyn | 12:11:00 AM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
pitter patter.
jocelyn | 3:12:00 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
or maybe i've been mugging too much...sigh. i need a break. i flunked my mcq test2 and it's a pretty high percentage. it just disappoint me and makes me disheartened. for what i study so hard when others dont even put in the effort, but their results is on par with me? aye. i guess lady luck was never with me. =(
think im really getting old, or maturing really fast. that scares the shit out of me. seriously.
does memory work goes down with age too? i bet so. i used to be able to memorise tonnes of terms and paragraphs after paragraphs. but somehow, now, im unable to do it anymore. weird. it's either my brain is really puny or im old. i choose the latter. bahHhhh.
i no longer go for things which are unrealistic, i prefer practicality. guess what did i ask for my 21st birthday? (might take you an eternity to figure out)
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i actually ask for a new study table and plead them not to buy accessories for me.
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i mean come on, the whole world is going to flood your 21st birthday with rings, bracelets, necklaces and all sort of things...why not ask me what i want instead of giving me things which i dont really need? right? =) -ka ching! ka ching ka ching!- hahaha. i guess that hint was pretty obvious.
somehow, my life is pretty filled with restrictions too. i restrict myself from doing this and that...and it just suffocates me. perhaps im on the way seeking back the old self or im just losing myself more along the way. crossroads. aye.
clubbing, dancing, teenagers on the street...everything just seems so childish to me now. even things that i used to do before, yikes. drinking earl grey tea, sitting at national library reading books, discussing about world news, reading newspaper...these seems more appealing to me now. gosh. is this what growing up is about?
this has got to be the downfall of ikan the great's life. -roar!!!-
i.still.feel.like.killing.thelma. ---> the lecturer who flunked me. =/
i want my credit!!!!! i'll do anything for it!!! i swear!
jocelyn | 5:31:00 PM
step aside yakun kaya toast and welcome daddy ol's sardine toast! hohoho...i just cant get enough of it. woohoo! to hell with introductory immunology for the time being and indulge in my sardine toast. =) yup, that's my dad's speciality on the left.easy to prepare and super duper niceEeee-ness!!
just cut a slice of bread into half, minced sardine with pepper, put the sardine between the bread, dip the whole thing in eggs, pan-fry the bread with egg till it turns golden brown and wala! there you go, the sardine toast. =)haha easy right? can prepare it yourself.
i ate like 3 of it - equivalent to 3 slices of bread, perhaps half a sardine, two eggs and tonnes of calories. haha...but it's damn nice.
not forgetting, a cup of kopi-o. =)
oh well, back to studies now. before i flunk another paper again. bahHhhh.
it's time to run far far away...
jocelyn | 3:32:00 PM
check out this new blog from a friend of mine. it's an online business selling pretty dresses, clothes and accessories.
spread the word around yea? thanks. =)
it's just tears and rain.
jocelyn | 12:07:00 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
meanwhile, back to studies.
will update more when i find the time to.
restrictions.
jocelyn | 7:57:00 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
i look like an idiot now.
didnt go work, slept through it...but my eye is still swollen. weird. it was alright yesterday....sigh. that makes me 30bucks poorer.
pay still not in yet. handphone bill due in 2 days. i hate to drag and owe bills. i hate it. i hate it. guess i have no choice this time but to pay it when the warning letter is here. grRrrrr. do all bosses love to procastinate? im sure they do.
met up with chrissy poo yesterday. accompanied her to do her final shopping before she starts school. lingerie, bikinis, A4 paper, earrings, topshop skirts....major shopping spree for her. haha. got a cinnamoroll wall calendar....of course, chrissy poo paid it for me first. bleahz.
test on last saturday didnt go very well for me i would say. i seriously think im going to flunk it pretty badly. sigh. i need to get myself started and study hard for the final paper. only that can pull my grades up to a credit, or hopefully, a distinction.
i so dont wanna see another passing grade on my list.
freaking sleepy.
jocelyn | 1:28:00 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
i need a breather.
breathing deep.
jocelyn | 10:36:00 PM
Saturday, January 06, 2007
i read what you type.
that's all that i get to know.
i dont get to see what others see,
than what is written down.
it's all limited.
perhaps im really out of touch,
or im outdated.
if words of concern turns into frustration,
i have nothing more to say.
maybe i have spoke too much, but
there's only so-much-so that i can do.
im not angry,
im not overwrought.
im just here.
invisible.
jocelyn | 1:09:00 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
=(
japanese green tea.
jocelyn | 12:19:00 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
i cant blog it out....neither can i keep it in my heart. feeling so emo now.
not in the best of mood to study right now....m having a very very bad migraine right now. the pain is killing me. my face is feeling hot and my eyes are tearing. i need help. sigh.
i've got a lab report due and a test with pretty high weightage coming up on saturday. im dead. im not even halfway through the lab report cause i have no idea what the results is about. im in such a freaking holiday mood that i cant bring myself to study when the rest of the world is slacking away. haha.
im such a bloody procastinator. i hate it.
with an aim of 'nothing below a credit' for all my modules this year....(but judging at the rate im going), i think a pass will be good enough. bahHhhhh.
then again, i will make it. miracles might happen...pig may fly. who knows? i might even get a higher distinction for this module. haha...that's if i continue dreaming. sigh.
having a super big craving for pepper lunch....i just cant get enough of it. hahaha...maybe i'll have that for dinner tomorrow. =) that's if suba doesnt mind eating beef. heez. -pepper lunch! pepper lunch!-
praying that pay will come in soon....i need to pay my handphone bills and of course, feed myself. the amoung left in my bank is freaking pathetic. sometimes, i wonder what do i spend on. i dont see myself buying clothes, i dont see myself buying cosmetics, i spend a standard amount on transport...but the money just seems to disappear and -tink- into thin air. maybe i eat too much. but i've been eating nothing but food court...-roar-
money! where'd you go? i miss you so.... hahahaha. nonsense.
this migraine is driving me crazy. shall stop here.
clear cut.
jocelyn | 12:15:00 AM
Monday, January 01, 2007
it still feels like any ordinary day. =)
went to orchard last night for countdown. seriously, it has got to be the first time in my life that im seeing people going so crazy. sprays and everything. not forgetting, lots and lots of foreign workers. for a moment, i thought i went to little india instead of orchard.
dangerously packed - molest and what-so-ever.
bleahz.
wasnt as fun as what i imagined it to be...oh well....at least im out of the house during new year. haha.
thanks ne for the present. love it. =)
some photos to entertain you guys.
the nene pok-kaya-toast. haha she says she looks bare in this photo. i wonder why.
the jill-porkie. still as worm as ever.
chrissy poo. reflection. nice huh?
this has got to be the all time favourite photo of mine. look at ne. her face is priceless. haha. sorry ne...i just have to blog this photo up. haha. had a great laugh over this photo in the cab last night. =)
there. a perfect photo of us. of course...with the help of a stranger, who's avoiding the foam and not forgetting, in his classic hotel slippers. haha.
im starting this year right and straight. no more regrets and mistakes.
i will.
throwing the past.
