Saturday, December 30, 2006
i wonder. hmmm.
decided not to do any thanking list at the end of the year...like what i always do previously. there isnt much people to thank this year anyway...
of course, not forgetting about new year resolutions. haha...that's crap. we'll forget about that too. come on, seriously...writing down your resolutions is pointless. cause ultimately, you'll realised that you cant meet a single one of them. =) might as well spend your time on other things like sleeping or perhaps, singing a song or something.
oh well, maybe i should do a slight conclusion of this year. heez. here goes....
rollercoaster ride.
tired.
crazy guys.
lots of them.
-____________-"
friends?
i lost half of them.
acquaintances.
quiet.
alone.
bottled up.
in deep thoughts.
work.
study.
mug.
club.
not anymore.
matured.
childish.
emotional.
the end.
that's all. =)
smile.
jocelyn | 10:57:00 PM
Friday, December 29, 2006
crazy!!!!
siao eh!!!!!!
how come like that??!!!
fuck man. i give up.
jocelyn | 12:12:00 AM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
im one hell of a sad girl now. =(
it contains some of the best memories i have....perhaps, it broke at a right time. new year, new start. it's time for me to forget everything and move on. sigh.
never can you find an exact same mug. sniffle.
surreal. weird.
jocelyn | 2:10:00 PM
Monday, December 25, 2006
haha....except that it's the small one....not the big one.
oh well....better than nothing. =)
boredom.
jocelyn | 10:22:00 PM
or at least, it's just me.
everyone's ideal christmas is to be out gathering with their friends or their significant other half....and if you're not out there enjoying with the crowd, you're a loser. like....
'what's wong with you? dont you have anyone asking you out?'
i dont exactly know how to put my feelings into words right here, but it seems like im falling deeper into my own little fantasy world where there's just me and no one else. the word 'friends' no longer exist in my dictionary.
perhaps tv or sleep can be the best partner for me over christmas.
argh.
or the only thing worth celebrating on this day is my parents' wedding anniversary.
angsty.
jocelyn | 3:46:00 PM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
turkey
ham
jolly sandy
ice cream
rice?
red wine
presents
yup.
although the turkey taste a little burnt...but overall, still alright. think i was full from the amount of pepsi and jolly sandy i was drinking. damn gasy. haha. -burp- =)
oh well, think this has got to be the quitest christmas that im having. no countdown on christmas eve...no one asked me out. haha..perhaps i'll just rot at home. or bring my mum out...since my dad's going for a wedding dinner...which got my mum really pissed. she wanted to spend the day with my dad on their wedding anniversary eve. haha.
need to work half day on christmas day. incentives! incentives! double pay on christmas day. that's my only drive. aye.
got a pair of earrings from my aunt. lovely! happy happy. haha. will take a photo of it and post it up later i guess.
im starting to get worried for the lab report and test. seems like i dont have much time left. but im just in the festive mood. slack, rot and sleep. bahHhhh. i feel like skipping eka's chalet...it's so near to the test and due of lab report...but i feel so bad. sigh.
somehow, everything feels so surreal. slap me someone. i cant get over yesterday...like what's wrong with everyone? or perhaps, all the ex-es. like they have a nut loose in their head or something. one is mailing me a christmas present....which im starting to regret giving my address....but it's ok. i doubt he'll stalk me. the other one keeps staring at me while eating...and asking the world if i'm ok. of course im not ok with someone who keeps staring at me -from the corner of my eyes!!!!!-. grRrrrr.
i can see blood gushing out from my head.
-____________-"
whatever.
if someday, i ever retire and get bored with life, i can write a lifestory. like 'the ikanbillie life journey' or some sort.
no wait. let me change it to 'the physcos in ikanbillie's life'. sounds better.
im blabbering.
-roar!!!!!!!!-
as much as im blabbering, deep inside, im scare. sigh. i m. =(
i'll get over it....i will. someday.
silent night.
jocelyn | 10:04:00 PM
Friday, December 22, 2006
big time physcos.
or perhaps, everyone is physco.
absolut peach anyone?
jocelyn | 11:52:00 PM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
imagine a bruise and your elbow.
you cant stretch your arm out cos it hurts...
and not forgetting, you cant bend it too much either.
pfffffft.
christmas is coming. a day that i've been looking forward to...but somehow, i wish christmas is just like any other day.
im tired from work.
yawn.
jocelyn | 11:27:00 PM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
my havaianas and of course, with my ugly feet.
im on sales at courts. not forgetting, im the 'finest' and only cost 363bucks. gosh. so cheap?!!! and who the hell name their furnitures after people's (human's) name??
things to do when you're bored at lab (waiting for results) - take photos, be vain and talk non-stop.
my prized-possession. cinnamoroll metal tin containing snacks. wheEeeeee!!!!! =) happy happy.
jocelyn | 3:41:00 PM
i have no idea on how to continue my lab report, where to start from and how to finish it. bahHhhh...
-__________________-"
it's been raining for the past two days. cool and nice. -snuggle- so not in the mood to do anything...but sleep. been sleeping the day away....if only i can continue sleeping forever. not in the sense that i wanna die, but it'll be good just to sleep and sleep. sleep my worries away. =)
woke up at an unearthly 6am. accompanied my grandma to SGH for her eye checkup. the last time i woke up at such a time will be 2 years ago? that's back then in jc days. haha.
cute doctor for eye checkup. if only his name wasnt...
brought back some memories. aye. unhappy memories. whatever it is.
random pictures.
my brownie. heez...nice right? although the decorations kind of sucks....but it taste good!!! haha.
aunty melissa and me in the car. =P
the angels dance...bright lights hanging. christmas is coming.
that's yours sincerely with her new haircut. haha. ignore the irritating face. yea. im still having trouble styling my hair. i need help.
jocelyn | 2:51:00 PM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
wheEeee!!! great success. haha.
not like the previous gingerbread man that i baked. those were killers. literally. undigestable, incredibly hard and sort of tasteless. bahHhhhh. haha...was pretty blind when baking the gingerbread man...i cant seems to find the amount of water to add to the flour....so in the end, i added a full 1 cup of water. not realising that only 1/4 cup of water was needed. yea. in order to make the dough less watery, of course, you have to add more flour to it (ok, actually, i added close to one whole packet of flour =\ ) -----> end result, super hard biscuits.
-______________-"
did an experiment with it.
i threw the gingerbread man on the floor and it didnt even crack, chip or break!!!! hahahaha. solid man. woohoo. my uncle was making a joke out of it. he said perhaps the floor cracked instead. pfffffft.
at least my dad was nice enough to say it was not bad....just a little too hard. =) daddy's girl.
oh oh. another thing off my wishlist. haha....daddy bought me a dvd player!!!! yeah! can watch dvd in peace in my room now. hohoho. so happy!
i want to go to the new courts and ikea at tampines.....anyone?
disenchanted.
jocelyn | 12:38:00 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
first is mrs lim's christmas celebration. now it's mr tay's gathering. boohoo.
what's up next?
sleeping beauty's slumber party or something?
hahaha. oh well. whatever. =)
roar!!!
jocelyn | 6:15:00 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
call from school.
NUH.
blood donation.
for practical.
bahHhhh.
half awake.
no breakfast.
12.45pm.
20 tubes.
-____________-"
draw blood.
not enough blood.
giddy.
turned pale.
3 empty tubes.
pressure wrap.
rest.
cute doctor. =)
happy.
city hall.
azabu sabo.
with suba.
grant-a-wish.
chrissy poo.
toiletries.
wishes granted.
to the movies.
eragon.
dragons!!!
not bad.
emo.
bugis.
met up with eka.
bugis street.
red tops.
2 hairbands.
happy little girl.
home.
swelling elbow.
aching left arm.
tired.
fulfilling.
no more blood donation.
jocelyn | 10:15:00 PM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
jocelyn | 12:54:00 PM
i guess the whole gang is not turning up, ntu's having some competition or something....or should i say their hall is having a competition. whatever it is...yea. chrissy poo might still be in genting, i have school on that day....kw....erm. hahaha...i guess you wont turn up if you're the only one left. so far, douglas seems to be the only one who can make it for the christmas celebration. hmmm. the rest of the class? bahHhhh. god knows.
it's raining now....been raining quite a lot recently...perhaps someone above is crying for me. sigh.
i've got to learn to be independent. people will never be there when you need them...but you'll have to be there when they need you. it's time for me to learn how to be selfish too.
heart-sinking feeling.
snip snap short.
jocelyn | 12:13:00 PM
Monday, December 11, 2006
i need a break.
from everything...
jocelyn | 11:31:00 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
dont ask for the obvious reason. =)
can i just type what i want for the day and not be bothered with anyone?
hmmm. i guess i can.
went shopping with the sister at orchard instead. wanted to buy this surfbabe bag....but when i decided to go back for it (all thanks to my super flicker-minded-ness) after walking one whole round, the shop closed. it.was.closed. lovely. brilliant. -________________-"
spent quite some time at taka sanrio corner looking at cinnamoroll stuff. wanted to buy the cinnamoroll calendar book for 2007....but it was sold out. it must be some kind of curse. like no-shpping-for-jocelyn-today-curse or something. bahHhhh.
so in the end, the sister bought everything she wanted but i was still empty handed by 9.30pm. -diao-ed-
didnt want to head home so early...so we bounced into carrefour and look around. no idea what were we doing at the electronics department....but it suddenly dawned upon me that i need new pillow (the old one is giving me neckache) and a bolster (the old one is pretty flat now.....). yea....and i bought new ones. it's on offer too. =)
shall go shopping after work tomorrow. buy myself calendar book and a pair of topshop earrings since i have the $10 voucher. think i'll forgo the surfbabe bag...not enough money for transport and food. and perhaps, for more shopping at end of the month. (",)
have yet to do my bioinfomatics practical....pray that the lecturer will not check it tomorrow.
till then.
it wasnt and it isnt.
jocelyn | 11:45:00 PM
Friday, December 08, 2006
i would rather remain silent.
jocelyn | 11:37:00 PM
but you're all the same.
jocelyn | 11:33:00 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
but of course, i didnt sleep. headed down to plaza singapura with the two dinos and meet the sister for open season. =)
nice show....funny and cute. i love the bear!!!! it looks so huggable....not forgetting, the deer, which is irritatingly funny. ate dinner at swensen's. had my all time favourite curry chicken baked rice...seriously, there's pretty much nothing for me to eat there except baked rice and breaded chicken. hmmm. oh, not forgetting, choco pop ice cream and sticky chewy chocolate...mMmmmm. it just make your mouth watered right? haha.
starbucks was giving out free drinks today. any drink you order...they give it to you for free. but.....living in a kiasu society like singapore, of course, long before 5pm when the free drinks give-out starts, the queue was like woah....
and so ikan the great forgo her signature hot chocolate....which she's craving for. bahHhh. how sad. =(
bought myself kim jeong hoon's jap album and goong soundtrack. listening to the soundtrack while typing out this post now. it's soothing and nice....-note: i cant concentrate on my studies-
im a happy happy little girl. wheEeee! (",)
more shopping to be done and hair to redo. yups. till then!
listen. enjoy. indulge.
jocelyn | 11:53:00 PM
-something must be wrong with me-
lots of mugging to be done...i still have like....hmmm...7 more chapters to go...and not forgetting, memorising to do. rusty brain....how did i used to do it? sigh.
i've changed to internet explorer 7. apparently, it sucks. if windows ever prompt you to download ie7, dont ever do it. it's equivalent to commit suicide. not user friendly and took me a hell of a time to change the settings from chinese to english. grRrrr. makes me look like a freaking PRC ok....
-_________________-"
alright...im falling asleep....
more mugging tomorrow.
less thoughts, less trouble. more talks, more troubles.
jocelyn | 12:18:00 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
i dont have money to top up my ezlink card, no food at work, cant pay my handphone bill which is due this sunday, cant go christmas shopping, buy things for myself and the list goes on.
-__________________-" im feeling damn miserable now.
the wonders of cash. aye.
disappointed with everyone in this world. dont ask why...just that sometimes, it's better to play the role of the villian than the angel. yea....
class bbq coming up this sunday...and i promised to turn up. who knows? i might perform disappearing act or pang seh the people...since there's a lot of people turning up now.
lecture tonight....im tired!!!! but i'll perservere....i'll do well for this test and get back my distinction! -determine- muahahaha...essence of chicken please!!
mum and dad bought me new christmas decors for my tiny christmas tree....happy little girl. =) haha...there...my christmas tree which im proud of. =) if you guys happened to be wondering what's cinnamoroll that i've been mentioning on my wishlist, it's that white cute little thing right on top of the tree. i even made an angel halo for it. haha...out of beads and wire. not bad eh?
my room's pretty much a kid's room now....take a look at this.....
hahaha...the puzzle sort of spoilt the whole picture....my dad just refuses to find time to help me drill holes and hang it up on the wall!! argh. it's ok...i'll continue pestering him. =) a few more pictures coming up....long overdue...went out with the sister, ah ma and melissa to orchard. shopping, eating and not forgetting, taking photos with the christmas decors. (",)
melissa and grandma at crystal jade eatery. sweet.
not forgetting the two vain pots with christmas tree at taka. the all time favourite tree of mine. heez.
all of us. not easy taking a photo of four....be glad i have long hands. =)
jocelyn | 12:30:00 PM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
slap!!! kick!!! punch!!! smack!!! throw!!!
what's.your.fucking.problem?
jocelyn | 3:02:00 PM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
muahahaha.
and it feels good.
jocelyn | 11:32:00 PM
think it's the period of low morale and mood swings again. i just feel like hiding from the world. be it class gathering, shopping with friends or anything, i just dont feel like going. im still considering if i should go for next sunday's class gathering. call me anti-social...but i find nothing in common to talk to anyone.
from topics like school to hall to everything, there's just nowhere for me to fit in. stop saying that why do i mind so much about these....it's just that, aye.
emo. emo.
chrissy poo....how? bahHhhh.
so then now what how?
