Wednesday, February 28, 2007
pathetic.
dont ask, cause you'll still never figure out what im thinking.
never take back what you left.
jocelyn | 11:40:00 PM
i get scare when someone try to get to know me better.
i hate being asked out.
you move an inch, i step back a mile.
i just want things to remain the way it is.
i m confused with myself.
i hate the way im acting now.
i hate you even more.
everything change after you came. why?
perhaps you're much more influential than i thought.
close your eyes and go to sleep...cause everything will be over.
jocelyn | 9:35:00 PM
out of mind.
jocelyn | 9:25:00 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
-think hard-
-squint eyes-
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i really cant think of anything to blog about!!!
hmmm. maybe a few small little things here and there.
yesterday's mcq#2 was i dont know. average? not very well done? dont want to think about it. let's just sit and wait for the results to be posted out. not in the right mood to study for the finals...sort of brain dead for the time being. perhaps, i'll procastinate it till i stay at chrissy poo's hostel next week. which is not really the best idea. you know what last minute work can do. (it's destructive) hmmm.
many thanks to chrissy poo's friend who help me to advertise penderie couture on his blog. that was really nice and sweet of him. =)
finally had one business on hand. haha....first customer - suba. the owner of the rocking horse earrings. haha...
i've been blinging on the bak kua....stuffing myself with tonnes of bak kua....i love bak kua! new year's the only time whereby you can find bak kua at home. make good use of this opportunity and get fat! woohoo! not really fat fat....but, you know what i mean. heez...
cant wait to get hold of my next month pay....i have lots of things to buy....wheEeee! hahaha....shopping therapy! here i come! wait for me~
the absolut peach is almost half empty....hmmm.
tra-la-la....tra-la-la....
jocelyn | 11:22:00 PM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
haha. the following post will be in chinese.
跟一位朋友聊了一下， 心中有着许多感想。
不知该从那里开始， 也不知要停在那里。
但是，她的一句话 - 不是没人爱, 只是爱你的人还没看到你而已....
让我感到很十分安慰。
我总相信， 在天涯海角的莫一个角落， 一定会有一个人等着你。
不知不觉， 我又开始stoning了。。。
看来又是一个漫长的夜晚了。
零时抱佛脚. bahHhhh.
jocelyn | 1:29:00 AM
Thursday, February 22, 2007
hmmmm.
jocelyn | 11:45:00 PM
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im one hell of a tired girl. one more day to mcq test #2. and that means only one day to cramp 9 chapters in this tiny brain....and it also means im dead...
last minute carry buddha's leg. im sure you guys understand what i mean. for those who dont, it just simply means procastination. yup.
procastination runs in the blood. im sure of it. -double roar!!!-
i soOooo need to start studying right now....but my eyelids are fluttering. im so damn it tired. i've no tired what m i tired with. tired from collecting ang baos? tired from going out consecutively for the past few days? or tired from walking too much in heels? hmmm. i think it's all of the above.
wahHhhhh!!! i dont want to study....but i dont want to fail or do badly for this paper...i need this mcq paper to pull up my grades. it's a fucking 15% to the total. gosh. -slap myself awake-
i need a getaway.
jocelyn | 11:16:00 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
visit me at penderie couture ya? help me advertise and pass it around!
thanks! =)
jocelyn | 2:42:00 AM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
hahaha....first up,
happy birthday to the sister!!! =)
just came back from sentosa or let's say, vivo city. hmmmm. headed down to sentosa in the afternoon to check out the rhymes in bloom. hahaha.....what a disappointment. was hoping that there'll be lots of weird and special flowers...but it's just the usual flowers that you get to see out there. still, there's some nice flowers. =) i've got tonnes of photos to upload. woohoo. no camwhoring today, just flowers and more flowers for you people. (",)
here goes...
here's the sunflower queen presenting you her favourite sunflowers. haha....found right at the entrance to rhymes in bloom, sentosa.
no idea what's the name of this flower....but it's pretty aint it?
yours sincerely and the sister. as you can see, it's super bright, sunny, warm and humid. roar! the mother did not inform us that we'll be going to sentosa and we ended up dressing in collar doll top, shorts and heels. mind you, who in the right mind wears heels to sentosa?!
pretty pretty flowers....orange, yellow, white.....with bees buzzing from flowers to flowers. whoa.
im a little teapot, short and stout.
here's my handle, here's my spout.
when the kettle's boiling, hear me shout.
tip me up and pour me out. =)
small little white flowers....with my thumb. haha.
and some other flowers....which sort of resembles sweet william....hmmm.
ha! my favourite photo of all. why? cos by far, this is the nicest and clearest photo of a flower that i've taken.
and a whole hillside of flowers for you....
small little colourful flowers. overheard someone's conversation - this flower come in seven different colours and apparently, they give out a scent which mosquitoes hate. perfect for me!! mosquitoes! stay far away from me!!! wahahahhaha....like as i have the flowers with me. bahHhhh.
hibiscus. malaysia's national flower.
and no idea what this flower is....hahaha....
pretty pretty two tone rose....
and how can we forget about the famous orchids?
Y for Yin! Y for Yeah! haha....it's part of the rhYmes wording.....
check this out. thought it's pretty cool. see the mid section of the sky which is covered with cloud and seems misty? yeap. it's raining out in the open sea....but not in sentosa. mum pointed it out to me. niceness.
the family. =)
lastly, the cute sheep that im in love with. saw the advertisement on tv where this sheep goes around throwing flowers? it's damn cute!! haha...
bah bah black sheep,have you any wool?
yes sir, yes sir,
three bags full.
one for the master,
one for the dame,
and one for the little boy,
who lives down the lane.
and that's all.
jocelyn | 9:37:00 PM
perhaps love only exist in movies and drama serial....aye.
an unearthly hour right now.....but cant get to sleep....should be studying or mugging my ass off right now...practical exam coming up on thursday (which dumb ass plan the time table?! an exam right after the new year holidays.....how wonderful.) and mcq #2 on this saturday. -roar!!- that's two papers in a new year week!!!!
i should be out collecting ang baos or something.....bahHhhhh.
im stressed.....again.
so take me as you find me.
jocelyn | 1:49:00 AM
Monday, February 19, 2007
not much happening for the first day of new year....the usuals...stayed at home till late afternoon...cos apparently the family is tired and lazy to shift their asses out of the house in the bright and humid weather. hmmm. headed down to the annual river angbao place which is near the esplanade...gosh. it was horrendous. horrible + terrible = horri-terri-ble. filled with freaking lots of PRCs and this year's theme sucks.
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perhaps the only thing good about the whole place is the food. haha....=) the mango ice-shave, wheatgrass with apple juice, lime and lemonade, korean bbq fish which is damn nice (!!!) and i think that's all. hoho.
didnt spend more than an hour there...and off we went to my mum's old neighbour's house for a visit. nothing much to do except sitting there and watching tv. yup yup.
embarked on the journey home....or let's say, for dinner. starving to the max. hougang mall was literally closed/shut down/not in operation except for the all time favourite mcdonalds, kfc and long johns. technically speaking, all the fast food chains were opened. haha....
not much choices....but was really sick of mcdonalds....the family had dinner at long johns. somehow (i know im not dreaming...), the chicken that they served at long johns seems to be shrinking...and getting really really small. even one combo 1 cant do much to the starving ikan the great. hmmmm.
headed home. camwhore. took lots of self pics. hahaha....
first up, the mother and yours sincerely. haha =) pretty pretty.
and here's the dad.
and presenting the sister. (",)
and here's me....
and me......
and me....
more of me....
still me..... (damn ugly right? gosh.)
getting sick of me?
hahaha....no more. that's us.
happy little girl.
jocelyn | 12:27:00 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
the aftermath of valentine's day. tsk tsk. the clearing up of this shit is enough to kill everyone. this isnt the worse...forgot to take a photo of the back of the shop. it's the ultimate. perhaps the haven for the spiders, cockroaches and any other thingy out there. yup yup. disgusting.jocelyn | 2:06:00 PM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
stupid water pipe left me a seat beside him which is like diagonally across asshole. bleahz. felt like killing him.
and the average amount each one of us have to pay?
a freaking 16.50. -___________________-"
and to think that i only ate a little....bahHhhh. not worth it man.
bounced off halfway through the dinner and headed to chinatown to meet the parents for new year shopping. what's new year when you havent shop at chinatown and buy tonnes of sweets? hahaha....yea yea...the sweets are my main aim as always.
got lost in the crowd and couldnt find my parents till 45mins later. sheesh. it's usually in the crowd that you wish you were taller....ie. fresh air and you're able to find someone faster. ha!
got myself a coconut...that's a must-have for chinatown shopping too. heez. squeezed through the crowd....lots of cute stuff...nice food too.
and not forgetting, my 100grams of sweets for 80cents. hahahahaha....bought two bags of sweets. enough to get my teeth decaying. saw lots of PRCs.....yucks. disgusting. damn ugly. damn noisy. damn irritating. damn rude.
oh oh...was standing outside this coffeeshop place near people's park or something like that...and my mum was telling me that this is the famous hangout of a lot of prostitutes. the place for them to hunt for their preys or get hook. eye-opener. lots of them....in big groups. most of them look like they're from the philippines....and some from china. not beautiful....but bloody big assets. hahaha....i guess that's what most guys go for eh?
i wanna watch phantom of the opera. anyone?
stupidity.
jocelyn | 1:01:00 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007
fast forward.
burnt my hand twice in a week. im cursed or something.
1. the fucking hot water scalded my finger and it became a blister. the freaking blister burst when i was wrapping some flowers and the stems scratched against it. the skin is gone and left with the exposed flesh. pus keeps flowing and now the finger is swollen. -roar!-
2. doing experiment. switched off the bunser burner and put it aside (note: i put it aside to prevent myself from burning my arm when doing gram staining), but guess i didnt put it far enough. pressed my arm against the burner which is fucking hot and got burnt. it looks like the grilled line you can see on your burger king patter except that it's human meat this time round. -double roar!!-
3. look on the bright side, it's on my left hand - which is pretty much handicapped.
4. it's bloody pain!!!! cant sleep at all.
5. im the world's 'luckiest' girl you can find.
that's all for the day.
miserable.
jocelyn | 11:38:00 PM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i need my pay badly...bloody hate procastinator....haha...that includes hating myself. bahHhhh....the life saving pay. the bill paying pay. the transport pay. the food glorious food pay. the shopping pay. the wonderful pay. i need you!!!! -roar-
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im desperate. i work for a living...so stop dragging my pay again and again....month after month...sigh.
i realised i seems to be repeating this at the second week of every month. hahaha. who cares?
i've got lots on my mind right now. the usuals....i dont know where to start from. hmmm.
been feeling numb towards everything.
im restless.
im stress. always.
everything brings back pieces of the past.
even a daily bus journey.
come on. let me take you on a journey down memory lane.
an everyday routine for four years.
the bus stop where i'll alight.
and wait for the bus to get to school.
sleepy, super dorky, unearthly 5.45am.
an ever-so familiar bus stop.
the one where a friend will alight with me.
where she'll cross over to her house.
the one where i'll wait for 147 to bring me home.
an ever-familiar place.
the sweet childhood escape.
once filled with blocks of flats.
but now a green field.
the place where i'll be pampered by my grandparents.
hang out with my cousins.
swinging on the swing.
laughing out loud.
selling carrot cake.
and not forgetting,
flying kites with my dad and sis at the field,
near the river.
a familiar building.
where i once used to work.
my first part time job.
my first pay.
and the first time someone made plans for me for vday.
but got rejected too.
haha.
a long route.
where i'll walk down to get to work now.
a bus journey.
where you used to hold my hands.
warming me cos the aircon was cold.
and telling me how blessed i was.
gone.
going gone.
all happens on the same bus route, bus 147.
is there any buses that bring you back to past everyday? tell me. i'll be glad to listen to them. =)
reminiscing.
jocelyn | 8:48:00 PM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
im sick again. as usual. sore throat, running nose, blocked nose, cough till your lungs come out of your mouth literally....bahHhh. i hate it. =( i sound like a croaking frog now. sigh.
oh oh. setting up an online business soon. do keep a lookout for it yea? selling handmade jewellery. =)
till then.
