Sunday, February 22, 2009
when the moment is ending soon.
jocelyn | 11:26:00 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜
jocelyn | 1:04:00 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
i didnt mean to ignored everyone yesterday, that wasnt the best thing to do in this world but i think i just need to keep quiet and keep my emotions to myself. self defence you may call it, but i know if i open my mouth, nothing nice will come out of it too...better be quiet than hurting someone.
i know people care for me. it really took me some time to decide on ignoring everyone okay. pffft.
i have things that i cant say out here and it's really complicated. im not being complacement here...neither am i being an insensitive bitch.
i really didnt mean to hurt anyone's feeling. i really didnt mean to. =(
i know im a daddy's girl.
and i know i shouldnt have snapped at mum over the phone.
im sorry. im really sorry.
jocelyn | 6:41:00 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
im really really not feeling happy at the moment. i just dont understand why is it that everything that im doing seems to be wrong in the eyes of others. the choice of friends that i have, the friends that im going out with, the life that im leading...nothing seems to be correct.
im 22. i cant stay out later than 10.30pm.
i start getting phone calls at 8plus or 9plus asking me where m i, how come im not home 'cos it's late.
im 22. each time i go out, i have to report to them who m i going out with.
i've never gone for late night supper with my friends before.
i've never had a slumber party or slept over at my friend's place.
i've never tried going for late night cycling.
i don't go clubbing.
i don't smoke.
i don't take drugs.
i don't go out and drink, get drank and wasted.
i can take care of myself and know what m i doing.
they questioned about my every move.
they treat me like a kid.
they're concerned. i know. but overly concerned.
people laugh at me for going home early.
people asked me to lie to my parents so i can stay out late, but i've never done it.
people tell me to break the rules and get the freedom i've wanted...but i still go home 'cos i don't wish to make my parents unhappy.
i just wish people really understands how i feel. it really sucks to see people of the same age around you getting the freedom while you're being tied down. im not being complacent here...it's just that you'll really have to be in my shoes to understand how i feel.
jocelyn | 11:03:00 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
never a clean break, no one's here to save me
you're the only thing i know like the back of my hand
and i can't breathe
without you, but i have to
breathe
without you, but i have to...
jocelyn | 3:00:00 PM
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
somehow, whenever i read stomp, i get disgusted by the things people do in singapore. not giving up seats in mrts and buses, ugly commuters and everything.
the thought of people constantly on the lookout and taking photos scares me too. i avoid seating on the priority seat in train and live in fear that someone might take my photo and post it up on stomp. not that im doing something bad, but you know, singaporeans tend to complain about everything. things that we deem correct might not be right to others.
somehow, a part of me dont understand why do people always have to pin-point those who sit on the priority seats only. does that mean only those people have to give up their seat to the elderly/pregnant ladies out there? im sure people who are not sitting on the priority seats have the right to give up their seats to the needy too.
i once sprained my ankle and boarded the train limping, with a big bandage. uncles and aunties snatched seats from me and the others stared at me, without giving up their seats. in the end, i stood throughout the whole journey. LL no choice but to curse and swear in my heart.
i hate it when people abuse their rights. doesnt mean you're an aunty or whatever, people will have to give up their seats to you. i really think it depends on the situation. but i always do give up my seats to the pregnant ladies and the elderly. i think that is basic courtesy.
not forgetting, if someone ever give up his/her seat to you, say thank you and give a smile! it doesnt kill to open your mouth and thanked someone. =D
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Monday, February 02, 2009
jocelyn | 1:07:00 PM
sorry for the constant lack of updates. i've been really lazy to sit down and really type a good long post.
the blogging bug just disappeared! like poof! and abandon me. -snorts-
anyhow, it's the new year season...but the festive mood is sort of fading already. it's the 8th day of lunar new year and i supposed everyone should be done with house visiting. the angbao collection is....hmmm.
not very good. -curse the economy-
oh well...better than nothing. this money is to help me tide over my darkest period in life...which is like now. lol...i overspend for this month. freak man...what the hell did i do?! i think i spent too much on food. and why does it have to be food?? pfffft. i got to stop eating.
i've got some photos that i took over the past week...but uploading pictures via blogger is a pain in the ass. if only uploading is as fast and easy as facebook. =/
then again, i've got so much time. i guess i will upload some photos. lol. im such a fickle minded bitch. i cant stand myself...here goes.
met up with nene on the first day of new year at hougang mall for a short while. =) she was at her cousin's place in hougang.
ended up taking photos in the toilet. with the help of the full length mirror of course. haha....
sticking out tongues. =P
last saturday, went to the floating platform area at esplanade for the annual 春到河畔迎新年 thingy. the lighting this year was good. not forgetting the food stalls...oOooo. delicious! cant get enough of the hot and spicy toufu. oh, that's me and gary. top left, white bright light = the ongoing construction of IR. top right, red bright light = floating platform with tonnes of red light decos.
a close view of the lightings. not very clear...but oh well, i thought the reflections in the water is nice. heh.
i still have a few more pictures...but blogger is being a bitch this time round. everytime i upload pictures, the alignment for the words goes off. the paragraphing is like....woah...and pictures are jumbled up. hate it.
alright. im done blogging. poof.
