Sunday, August 27, 2006


just came back from bbq. so tired.


apparently, monica asked me along to her friend's 21st birthday chalet/bbq at downtown east. bahHhhh. she doesnt know anyone there, except for the birthday girl. me? best. i dont know anyone there, not even the birthday girl. haha solid.


oh, brought her to my company today for interview and yup, she got in. haha...admin assistant. good for her. oh well, as least i have someone to accompany me for the last 3 days of work.


speaking of work, just 4 more days and im free!!! yeah!!!!


happy little girl... =)



had lots of fun with monica today...played blackjack with her. just two of us playing. punishment for the first round was hitting each other palms....(it hurts like shit) and for the second round, was tickling. hahaha....of cos, she got all the tickles. lady luck must be with me today. damn. should have bought toto or 4D....i might strike. ha.

bbq was horrific. all thanks to man-in-black. bloody hell irritating. arGh. i think his brain is hollow. as much as i dont bbq very often, i know that all the charcoal shouldnt be all in the center, you have to at least spread out all the charcoal so that the corners and side have heat to cook more food right?

but noOooo. apparently, mr moron thinks it's alright. and so he claims that it's really difficult to spread out all the charcoal cos it's really hot. what the fuck. i've never seen such a sissy in my life. -strangle him-

there's a revolutionary invention called - tongs. he can try using it to spread out the charcoal. he got me and monica so pissed that the both of us just bbqed our own food, (haha...which is like one big mountain of food just for ourselves) carried food to the room and be antisocial to the world. like we care. it's not we're going to see these people for the rest of our life. sheesh.


and so.....we watched tv. had the whole room to ourselves. no one disturbed us. went back home after cutting the cake. laughed through the entire journey home. sarcasm. lots of it. jokes. fun. haha. it's been long since i laughed till i cry. literally.


i even had a slight sprain of my back from laughing and playing too much in the bus. haha childish-ness.



slight updates.


been really busy with work for the past few days. not surprising. once they know you're leaving, they'll start piling you up with lots of shit. or help them clear their shit before you leave. which means fully utilise you before you go. -___________________-"

school. this module sucks. especially the lecturer. one talks like he's singing a lullaby.


~ go to sleep jocelyn....i speak in monotone....im boring....my lectures are not interesting. skip it....if not, sleep.....~



the other one, has a bloody mole on his face. i hate moles. =


social life is slowly regaining. will be better once work stops i think.


not thinking that much. or at least i think so. too tired to think.



lastly, im still tired. heh.
















forgotten....

jocelyn | 12:24:00 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006


and so the depression bug got me.



who cares.



i feel so much better after crying it out. and of cos, there's a price that comes with it. swollen eyes.

that's a big price. =(


thanks to someone who listened to my crap and understand me. appreciate it. seems like no one else know's how i feel except you. -hugs-




i ignored you...but yet,
i want attention from you.

i hate you to the bone...but yet,
there's a part of me that can forget you.

you turn my life upside down....
now my life's a wrecked.

i dont believe in heroes and romeos anymore...
all because of you.

i cant seems to put the past behind me....
im sorry for myself.





time. i need more time.










slipping away.

jocelyn | 11:23:00 PM


was transferring photos from the small individual albums to one big album.


aye. nostalgic.

from tk, to mj till now.

grad nights, 1st 3 months, seoul garden outing, class photos, gang outings, neo prints, photos, merlion park....those were the days. where have all the fun time gone to?


childish to mature. haha. big changes in us. i miss the gang. i miss everyone.


i know you guys cant be aound with me all the time.
i understand.
but sometimes, im just so lonely in school.
you guys have each other.
in school, in hall.
even back then in bedok.
i just wish you peeps were with me sometimes.
i feel tiny.




as much as i know what's going on in your hall,
the people,
the scandals,
feli,
fireman,
zq,
yq,
i feel leftout.
i dont know them afterall.



im tired.
i cant think straight.
im bothered.
troubled.
bottling up lots of things.
i dont know how to express my feelings,
thoughts and everything.
im numb.
i cant take it.



i cry to sleep,
i wake up feeling lifeless.
meaningless.
zombie-fied.
im just so tired of everything.
i've seen enough of the working world.
the ugliness of human.
i hate adults.
i dont wanna grow up.










overwhelmed by emotions.

jocelyn | 12:29:00 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006


eye bags!!!



tired.


headache.






sleep.
i need more of that.

jocelyn | 11:20:00 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006


never assume anything.



cos just when you think one episode is really over,






it isnt.



things just get worse.

jocelyn | 11:33:00 PM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006


had a very weird dream last night. dreamt that i actually went back to sushi tei to work...so did jill. and i didnt even inform my parents about it. -shudders- haha. of all place, taka sushi tei. my my my...there must be something wrong with my brain last night.


somehow, when an episode ends, another starts. how pathetic can my life get. aye.


yeah! got a red adidas watch.hohoho....very happy little girl now. =) been aiming to get that watch for a very very very long time. finally, got it last night. or should i say, my aunt bought it for me. heh. lalala~ city chain having sales now..buy one watch at 10% off....buy two, you'll get 20%. not a bad deal right? so if you guys really really wanna get a new watch, faster go city chain and buy before the promo is over.

lazy national day afternoon. no one asked me out. i asked no one out. shall just stay at home, sleep and rot the day away. there's work tomorrow anyway..cant go out till late tonight. bahHhhh. tired.


just 22 more days to go. bear with it!!! -like a bear!-


dilemma. stay or leave? i dont know and i cant decide.

ever have the feeling that you dont know yourself? i get that all the time. i dont know what im thinking, what i want, why m i doing certain things and why m i reacting and making a big fuss over small little things. perhaps, i know. im starting to morph into this anal retentive freak. -choke- haha.


jokes aside. i really have no idea. women are really some complicated piece of shit huh?


shall stop thinking. better off painting my nails now then typing nonsense.


will try to upload some photos.....took quite a lot recently. been long since i last took photos. with the gang. my family.
















missing the good ol' times.

jocelyn | 12:50:00 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006


city hall.
late comers.
very late comers.
jill pork.
zhusiling.
tcc.
ginseng chicken and mushroom broth.
oreo drink.
fishy ol pal.
chrissy poo.
change of table.
nene pok.
vril vril.
potato wedges.
esplanade.
humans.
more humans.
i hate humans.
squeezing.
good spot.
pig head sister.
kah woon.
more squeezing.
famous amos.
no nut chocolate chip cookies.
heh.
9pm.
fireworks.
italian fireworks.
nice-ness.
marina square.
thai express.
chilli.
spice.
the world's bestest lemon tea.
or
herbal lemon tea.
orange card.
photos.
stupid game.
gulp of herbal lemon tea.
1,2,3.
-swallow-
torture.
dumb.
the gang.

jocelyn | 10:34:00 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006


just.one.more.chapter.





-__________________________-"




hang.in.there.












nuts.

jocelyn | 12:06:00 AM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006


my my my.....how brain draining can it get....

studying for exams. siGh.



totally lost my freedom. when was the last time i went out and have a good shopping therapy?

oh wait, that was on sunday. haha. whatever.



taking a short break from studying. 6 more chapters and im done with it!! -bear with it, like a bear-

took 4 days leave. hahaha....shiok. ultimate couch potato, sleeping god and junk food eater now.


coming up on friday......interview at citibank. wish me luck!
















gone going gone......
nothing last forever, except





memories.

jocelyn | 5:37:00 PM